Mistake

I could see the red warning signal.

Something is wrong inside.

Something i need to release.

I was wrong.

Teach me to love. To learn to see from the heart.

Matthew 25 v 40 - "Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me"

Forgiveness

Found a booklet on "Forgiveness" this evening when i came back home. Some books which i left unread some time ago.

I'd always thought to myself there isn't anyone whom i have not forgiven yet. But i guess, He always speaks to me @ the right time. Yes, well...

Some extracts from the booklet that I would like to share..

"True Forgiveness begins by dealing with sin honestly. "

"Many things may irritate, annoy or upset us about someone else. Those things may require enduring, they do not involve forgiving. Sometimes we feel that someone has wronged us. But the truth is that jealousy, insecurity, or ambition easily distort our perspective. "

"Someone disagreeing with us or hurting our feelings does not necessarily brings us into the realm of forgiveness. Not all wounds are created equal, Proverbs 27 v 6 tells us that.. "wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses."

I like this best from C.S. Lewis :-
"Real forgiveness means steadily looking at the sin, the sin that is left over without any excuse, after all allowances have been made, and seeing it in all its horror, dirt, meanness, and malice.."

Its not talking about burying sin under the naive assumption that "time will heal your wounds".. wounds that are not tended do not automatically heal.

"The pains we dare not remember are the most dangerous of all. We fear to face some horrible things that once hurt us, and we stuff it into the black holes of our unconsciousness where we suppose it cannot hurt us. But it only comes back disguised. It is like a demon wearing an angel's face. It lays low for a while only to slug us later, on the sly. " -- Lewis Smedes

"We need to let go of the offense even when the other person won't"

"Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting to remember, but remembering to forget"

Yup.... i've heard You..

Write

I caught myself writing lately. Perhaps am trying to remember the things that I went through this year. Now that i've aged... i tend to be forgetful. =P

E shares some of her favourite quotes today.. thought i may paste it here so i'll be able to remember what some of my friends shared...probably some of them may apply to what you are facing today :)

"If you do not wish to be prone to anger, do not feed the habit; give it nothing which may tend to its increase."

"Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were."--Cherie Carter-Scott

"It’s not about you. The purpose of your life is far greater than you own personal fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. It’s far greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams and ambitions. If you want to know why you were placed on this planet, you must begin with God. You were made by God and for God, and until you understand that, life will not make sense." --Rick Warren

I like Rick Warren's quotes best.

Back to JW

Going back JW for service on a Sunday felt good. Feels like home :) Brought back the good old memories when He brought me back in 2004.

It was also the first time that am serving in Chinese service. Something new. Nice experience. More to discover. Realised there are many things to take note of. To coordinate at the same time while worshipping and praising.. generally am happy to be given this opportunity. To find out more what it means to be serving Him. To find out what am able to do. To be stretched.. to expand my capacity.

Love the msg by Pastor Kong today.. on Confidence. Not on self confidence. But the confidence that comes from what you believe in what God had said. He talks about Christians.. no matter how talented and creative they are, if they are detached from God.. they will never bear the kind of fruit that God wants them to. It is an absolute necessity to be connected to Him. (John 15 v4)

Goes on talking about having Fear. It makes it much easier for us to blame others for our own failures. Yes it is. But i do think there is this fear of being the Greatest too. Fear that you would be able to achieve more than you could think of. Why is it so when we all knew that we are more than conquerors in Christ?

Are we being shaped to be small-minded? And we tend to think God is small at times.. (Sorry Father, I confess)

Believe that this isn't what He intended when He had me in mind :) I'll move to a greater 2008 with the Confidence!

Seed Sower

This morning while i was walking to work, was listening to the podcast of Joyce Meyer's message on Actions and Consequences.

She was talking about where do you sow your seeds to - the flesh or the spirit? She goes on talking about sowing to the spirit reaps life, on how you choose to set things right eventhough ppl exasperates you.. choose to de-focus on the negative side. By sowing to the flesh, will lead to destruction.. destroying your relationship as well as yourself.

And most people would think by sowing to ONE right choice, they will EXPECT many things to fall into place. How true is that? There are no shortcuts. And you just have to keep sowing right.. and it goes on... whether or not you've seen the results. Long suffering. Endurance.

E was talking about this... and mentioned this.. "sowing does not mean reaping in my own terms"..

That makes sense. I mean most of us would not like to admit this.. but yeah.. that leaves a thought for me today..

Thankful

Today was my first day of class for my 2nd semester. After 3 weeks of break (how it flies!), its yet another term of challenges. Ha.

Gotten my results.. finally! THANK GOD for everything :) Scored 3 Bs and 1 A for my 4 subjects and its really hard work. Phew.. the effort and time which i've sowed are not returned void. So happy and grateful to Him who has given me the strength to pull through. Its funny that as we looked back now and hey... We've made it :)

Am believing for yet another great term, and more terms to come.. :)

Celebration with my Friends

Happy Birthday to me! Yup, my 25th Birthday.. sigh. How time flies. Alright.. below are my friends who are celebrating for me. :)

From left to right is Jiahui, Connie, Myself and Cheryl :)) More than 10 yrs of friendship still..

Singing birthday song .. lalalala... lalalala..

Alright, we were all trying to act cute.. hahaha not many years left to "act" cute though.. :p