Not Impressed

Felt weird these days.

Its one of those days where you just want to hide. Be alone. I'm weird. Odd. Strange.

Many things coming up at work, sth is brewing. Anyway, one of my colleague confide in me lately that she cant take it any longer becos' of the 'continual handover' to another team. (Its a long story)

Job frustrations. Or rather ppl frustrates.

Anyway back to the point, she is feeling stressed up and cant sleep in the night. And sometimes she even broke down and cry. She told me today that this year she needs to build herself up. I told her she dont have to rely on her strength. She gave me a bewildered look and asked why.

I explained. But i didnt get to the whole God topic yet. Just shared with her my experiences etc. And while i was doing that, i thought to myself, will He uses my testimony to bless someone? Answer is obviously a yes. But i doubted. I doubted that my words have no effect on ppl. -- this is a weakness!!!

Sigh.... i know i know..

I always ask Him to use me as a life testimony.. and when the real thing comes, unbelief cames in. Unbelief in myself. A lack of confidence in Him.

He's not impressed. so am i.....